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So Much to Tell You

August 28, 2018

It’s a little house on a hundred acres of oak forest. A canyon built like a cradle where, over 31 months, I’ve clambered, climbed and connected.

I fell in love here.

Today has been my last day on the ranch. We’re moving 3000 miles across the country to another forest and another home, starting tomorrow.

Leaving this place is saying an extended goodbye to a kind, gentle, and lavishly generous friend.

Tonight, Marty and I walk the property, marveling as though for the first time at the way the sun slides golden up the hillsides in the evening. We crunch oak leaves beneath our feet. We track a bear by the road.

When we return home, small lights brighten the path to our house and there’s a happy glow inside. Our family’s in there. The dogs streak ahead because they’ve sensed their Karen is nearby. What greater cause for celebration? Inside, they’ll leap and grin and tell her, “What things we’ve seen! We have so much to tell you!”

I’ve moved a lot in my life, but  leaving a place has never felt quite like this. I’ve never felt the land love me back like it does here.

Tomorrow the morning light will slide down the canyon wall and illuminate the valley. I won’t be here, but that moving strip of gold and the smells and sounds of the place are going nowhere. They’re timeless. They’re mine.

Karen and I will climb into Sappho the Sapphire Subaru, along with Bilbo Baggins and Claire, in the early morning and embark on a new life. Slide eastward across the continent, towards dawn.

I don’t know what we’ll find on our journey, before we meet up with Adam and Marty in our new home town. But the journey is a place all of its own, and we’ll arrive shouting, “What things we’ve seen! We have so much to tell you!”

See you on the road, folks. Thanks for reading.

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  1. Mary Walker says

    August 28, 2018 at 4:43 am

    That’s a lovely way to say goodbye. Safe travels to you all.

    • rowan says

      September 27, 2018 at 5:29 pm

      Belated thanks, Mary!

  2. MaryAnn Lowry says

    August 28, 2018 at 4:53 am

    Safe travel thoughts and prayers for you and Karen. I don’t know what your path will be to your new home. My son Ross and I did a road trip to DC from Texas. While he drove I looked up local diners or restaurants along our route. Met great people and had such a great time enjoying the beauty. You will collect more stories for your memory treasure bank. Delicious light writing awaits.

  3. Tricia Elliott says

    August 28, 2018 at 5:13 am

    Beautiful, Ro. Much love and safe passage.
    xoxo

  4. Paula M Keogh says

    August 28, 2018 at 10:13 am

    Hi Ro,
    So much love in this post. Farewells pull on the heart strings and remind us of the good memories we’ve made – and point to the intriguing unknown future. The photos are beautiful. Ultreya!

  5. Lara says

    August 28, 2018 at 11:01 am

    It’s a beautiful drive East, into all the new beginnings. Anytime you see a shabby diner or food stop with lots of cars in the parking lot, that’s the place to eat. Follow the locals.

  6. Anisha Imhasly says

    August 28, 2018 at 2:15 pm

    Safe travels Rowan, what a moving tribute to a place that has loved you so well.

  7. Kimberly Kyle Gilligan says

    August 28, 2018 at 3:14 pm

    Your family gives me immeasurable insight into choosing paths for ourselves. We get to create our own journeys and stir the pot of our own sought after magic. I find delight in all of you. Exciting indeed!

  8. Jessica Waite says

    August 28, 2018 at 4:18 pm

    What a beautiful way to honour this place. Sending love as you say goodbye to your home. Looking forward to tales of your adventures from the road.

  9. Donna says

    August 28, 2018 at 11:08 pm

    Truly beautiful Ro! I could smell the air and feel the depth of connection! Safe travels.

  10. Sean Mangan says

    August 29, 2018 at 4:12 am

    Safe and vivid travelling, my love. xxxxxx

  11. Christina Lawler says

    August 29, 2018 at 12:54 pm

    “I’ve never felt the land love me back as it does here”

    What a gorgeous line. I can’t wait to feel this way someday!!

  12. Melissa Pratt says

    August 30, 2018 at 3:41 am

    Have a wonderful road trip! Some of my best times ever were on road trips…

    May you find unexpected delights in the way and a place you’ll adore at journey’s end…

  13. Eliza Tipping-Smith says

    August 30, 2018 at 10:38 am

    So georgeous ♡

  14. Cami Pack says

    August 31, 2018 at 1:28 am

    “I’ve never felt the land love me back like it does here.” <3 <3 <3 Safe journey, Ro!

  15. Freyja Swan-Utsman says

    September 1, 2018 at 11:29 pm

    notes…
    So glad you got to experience “California” in the most beautiful way.
    As the season turns, it seems a perfect time to transition.
    Releasing and turning toward the new with love and beloveds.

  16. Amanda says

    September 4, 2018 at 9:37 am

    Oh beautiful Rowan. I feel all the feels reading this. Go well love and look forward to going along for the ride on your words. X Amanda

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    June 12, 2019 at 12:32 am

    what lovely things indeed!
    joy takes such courage, I quiver reading your post
    My reply, this humble bow

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